Looking back at my 2016 there was both triumphs and struggles. Some things that happened in 2016 I had no way of influencing the outcome of, so ruminating on those doesn't help. However, there was definitely things I did have an influence on the outcome of, that is what this post is about.
This year I have made many goals for myself, ranging in difficulty. I have made around 12 goals this year, I have made good progress on or completed 6 of them. Which is a success rate of 50% or if this was a school project it would be a failure. That is not a good score card for the year, but goals aren't the only part of my life.
You know those late night conversations you have that you discuss your dreams and aspirations and all your grandiose plans for the next 25 years. Or the times your on an emotional high and write down a five year plan to fame, fortune, and happiness. Sometimes those conversations turn into expectations either you place on yourself or other people place on you. Comparing what 20 year old me thought who I would be, or even a year a go me thought who I would be, to who I actually am right now, I am way off the mark. I haven't even gotten close to meeting those standards. My current self is a less healthy, less financially secure, and a less successful person. However, maybe I dreamed to big, looking smaller might be a better idea.
There are two quotes which help portray the importance I place on habits.
"In the first 30 years of your life, you make your habits; For the last 30 years of your life, your habits make you."
"Show me how you spend your time and how you spend your money and I'll show you what's important in your life."
Those quotes highlight that my habits should be helping me become the person I want to be. Taking a quick stock of what I consistently do (either intentionally or by default) only about 1/3 of my habits are actually beneficial, another 1/3 are just neutral and the last 1/3 are just plain bad for me. That means 2/3's of what I do on a daily basis is not helping me succeed…
Why I'm pumped for 2017!
Looking above at the ‘results’ of 2016 could be titled the year of failure. However, whether that is true or not I had a great year! Yes the year was filled with failures and I am not the best version of myself, but I am on my way. Early in the year I read a book that focused on taking a deep internal look at yourself and evaluate who you are at your core and why you are that way. The book stressed the point that this would probably be uncomfortable and that if it wasn't you probably weren't looking deep enough. Thanks to that book and some great talks by Bruxy Cavey, I have been looking in. I have felt that discomfort and seen where areas I can improve and how I can move forward. The other reason why this year has been better then the results above may suggest is they don't take into account all the amazing things that have happened this year. Also those results are missing the reasons why I have not met all my goals and expectations. Sometimes it was because of actual failures on my part. However, other times it was because I realized that the goal, expectation, or habit didn't align with who I am now or didn't actually bring me closer to being a better person.
2017 the year of _
"I have not failed. I've just found 10,000 ways that won't work." Thomas A. Edison
Filling in that blank is hard to do now, because I barely know what is in store for me this year. I know I want it to be a year better then the last, not because I fail less in 2017 but because I become closer to being the best version of my self.